What would of been two years...

Today, would have marked my two year with Tim. Well, if we were still together that is... the weather just so happened to be the same as it was a year ago. How sad. Of course, i sit and linger on the fact that we are not together, but then again, I know I need to move on. I just want to be stronger, and learn to put my heart else where, but then again, small steps. I couldn't help but not think about him, of course I wish things weren't the way they were... but what can I do. I know, that it's probably my fault for putting in no effort, but I am so afraid too. I just don't want to get hurt again. I don't want to feel betrayed, or go through another heart break because quite frankly I don't deserve it. I guess the next step is to learn to let go... *sigh*