An early morning

The past few days, I haven't been getting that much hours of sleep. He has been my mind... last night, i texted him wishing him luck on his MCAT. Can't believe today is the day. I really believe he is can do this, and hold so much faith in him. Yesterday, a friend held a 'study' party at this house that consisted of karaoke, which i got way too carried away. VERY CARRIED AWAY. My ex was there, and i didn't even care... that's how carried away i was. AS the day came to an end, i drove home and found myself randomly thinking of myself, and how i was in the past. I was such a dummy. Came home, washed up, and prayed with my fam. I then stayed on fb for a while... 1230 rolled around, and I took out my rosary and started to prayed for my roomie, and him. I prayed, and now I just hope God gets it. As I slept, all I could thikn about was him... I know he can do this. Gosh, he can do this. I woke up early today round 6 to do another set of hail mary as well. Now, I sit and wait to see...

I fasted for the first time this week. IT was very hard. But I had to keep in mind who I was doing it for, and who I was fasting for. I honestly, don't know how Jesus did this for 40 days. I had four slices of bread... and it never tasted so good. I guess, everything taste better when your hungry huh? But i managed to make it through the day. I hope to continue to do this... I want to do it.

Right now, there's not much on my mind... I just want to devote my life to God. I r am nothing with him I feel I have everything. I need to continue to living my life, the way he has intended for me. He will forever be my savior.

The time has come...

He takes his Mcat this weekend. I'm so nervous for him, but all I can do is pray. At times like these I wish i could be there, and give him my support but at the same time i don't want to be overbearing either.

I swear, I am such a great facebook creeper... that's how i found out. This is driving me nuts... it's time to talk to him. I feel it, i need too!!!!

Thinking back, on how he and I watched Patch Adams together, he told me why he wanted to be a doctor. Why he wanted to serve others... and now, he's taking that first leap by taking the mcats. Oh my gosh, this is too crazy. If he makes it, he's going to medical school!!!!!! Who knows, God has his life planned, lets see where he takes him. I'm going to be diligently praying for him...

God just give him strength!!!!!


I am so lame. -__________-

Rambling!!

It's been so long since I've blogged, gosh. I don't where to start or where to end. So here goes me rambling...

A few weeks ago, actually maybe last week... my family and I had gotten into an argument. We didn't speak, nothing. I was on the verge of leaving the house, and being on my own. I take the blame, it was my fault. I think when it comes down to it... i really don't show my rents any appreciation. I love my family, don't get me wrong. I just hate the fact that they are overly protective and not to mention their rules are very unreasonable at times. If only, i didn't spazz out so soon, and talked my way with them without yelling maybe things would have gone better... Things are better now. We breifly talked, I've been doing my best to stay a good girl at home cleanings, washing the dishes after they are done eating. I owe my rents a lot. And i feel like i've just been putting them through hell... *sigh* I'm going to do my best. Ask god for some guidance.. and better myself. http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=4576739489094127707

There's so many things going on that I am so far behind on... gosh. I've been praying a lot so God can give me strength to face all that's going on.. and I am doing my best. It's just stressful.

I've had a lot of problems... but my emotions are off the roof. A month ago, I talked to my best friend, Sarah. Our convo went from laughter to me breaking down, and hyperventilating like none other. I've decided to go seek help. So this fall, I plan on going to see a counselor. I feel like a part of me.. I'm so caught up in my emotions. It's so hard... some days I wake up feeling like shit.I act differently, and push others away. I don't know.. I feel like i can't control myself. The thoughts that i have... the things i think about are not okay. I'm just not emotionally stable. I need help. As hard as it is... I'm going to seek it. I over think too...

Camp ended a few weeks ago. IT was amazing. Despite all the huge ass bugs, the heat, and the bathrooms... I had an amazing time. The time I was there, I learned so much. As a youth group leader, your responsible for many things. There was never a time where I didn't recall not doing anything. We got there friday and went home sunday afternoon. The whole weekend, I was peeling like none other! So embarrassing. I have to say our youth group kicks butt! We are an amazing doan. I am so proud and hold so much pride in our parish! Our leaders, are great! Our kids are awesome! And as one body in christ we can do anything! Which was our themes, "we are one body". I met some awesome youth group leaders, that i aspire to be one day. It's so nice. Now we are on break till sept. which means no TNTT till sept! Wah....

July is quickly coming to an end.
-First week of August- Marian Days, MO
-Second week- Cap 1, Kansas, and my birthday
-Third week- School, and HT camp...
soo many things going on!

I'm going to start fasting every Wednesday.Why? Well, Jesus had fast for 40 days, and Wednesday was the first night before he started fasting/was in the desert. To think, that a man did not eat to sacrifice his life for the sake of children is truly admirable. Who are we to complain? My friend who has done it for a few months now, told me this... " Each week i fast for someone i love or care about" and that is so sweet. But at the same time, it builds character and patience. IT gives you and idea with what God has been through. He even brought up that Thinh had even fast for me.. somewhere along those lines I think the feelings are still there... who knows.

I finally had the chance to talk to my roommate last night. Although it was brief, it was so nice. She is truly my best friend. I don't know how blessed i am... she has helped me through so much, and i cna't thank her enough. Its so weird, how even though she has no idea what has been going on... she still manages to make me feel muhos better. Ahh i miss her...

An update on my life at the moment

Well it seems to be a while since ive last blogged. Why? My stupid brother had to upgrade his computer or whatever... So now I'm using Internet from the library, my phone, and my sister in laws iPad. Poop. I feel like there's so much to share but so little time... So il make I short..

> last week, nine hiep si's thang cap.. Aka became official leaders of our parish youth group. As excited as is was, I was also very emotional that day. It just made me want to become a ht all the more! I am iChat motivated to serve Christ!

>interning has been going well, I have been sick the past few days therefore I feel like I'm missing out on so much... So, I'm going to get my head in the game and do something about it.

>with camp coming up there has been so much to do! And I'm not even a leader yet... But it's my first time camping so this should be interesting. I still have to get my chau stuff together and pack!

>most recently I've been. Spending a lot of time with my youth group leaders sndi love it. I come to find something new and interesting about them tht I come to admire and aspire to be

>my friends have been pushing me to get over him.. But it's so hard.