Feelings...

I'd like to think that it's almost that time of month, and therefore I'm just being really emotional... but I don't think that's the problem. Last night, I was legitimately angry at my friends. For the fact that I didn't have the quiet time I needed to write my paper. Usually, I can deal with all that goes on in the background, but last night, I realized how bad my paper needed editing, and not to mention I read the essay wrong, therefore I didn't understand what the author was trying to portray... and time was running out... I couldn't deal with anymore. So instead of yelling at them, I left, and went to sit in the lounge. Finished my paper, and began to reminisce about my past with my ex.I'm always reminding myself that I'll be okay, and everything happens for a reason, and eventually it's his lost, but looking at our pictures, going through our videos, and remembering what we were made me sad. I could feel the pain all over again, and how much it hurts to loose someone you love. Deep down, even if he's not mine I hope he does find 'happiness' whether it's serving the Lord, meeting someone better than I, or whatever it is. I hope he finds that happiness. Last night, I turned to prayer to uplift my spirit. As I sat there, crying my pain away, I prayed to God. I asked him to help me deal with the hurt I was feeling, to teach me to better myself. Help me conquer this hurt that I was overcoming. I turned to him to save me. The darkness, I felt was unbearable.God, I ask you to watch over me. Help me. Teach me and guide me, so that I can become the child of God. Your love will not fail me, I know.